Laura's Journal

I've been feeling pretty shit lately and for the life of me, I probably couldn't narrow it down for you.
I'm staying at my Parent's for the weekend to give Nick a break from me. And I said that to him and he just gave me that 'don't be stupid' look. But I can feel him getting bored of seeing me everyday. Or maybe he's just really tired from work. But whenever we talk, he always brings up some other woman, whether it's an ex, someone from work or the supervisor from comunity service. He talks about them in a praising way, and upsets me that I'm getting jealous. I never thought I'd be a jealous person.
It doesn't help when he says think about my manager like "if I was working here and not dating you, I would probably hav asked her out" YEAH! So am I just what he's settled for or is he just a flirt. Aparrently he and Susan (the community service supervisor)get along really well and discuss things like how people are attracted to each other by feremones, and that's what makes here attracted to a guy. YEAH! She's a single mum about Nick's age maybe a bit older. And now Nick's talking about trying to get a job at the community service place.
But at the end of it all he tells me that he can't just talk to a woman without flirting with her. And that's all it is, is flirting. He'll always come home to me.
I wish I wouldn't let it get to me. I makes me get really down and it's affect other areas of my life. And I don't want to ask him about cos he'll think I'm psychotic, possessive freak.

Is he just settling for me until something better comes along

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